So many complex feelings ‘bout this. So, I get rather angsty whenever the subject of female sexual empowerment is brought up. Considering, I’m a trans woman, so this sort of makes me feel like shit. What kind of woman feels bad about her own and her sisters’ sexual empowerment?
Long answer. For twenty-three years I tried, really tried to be a straight-ish boy. I gave it a go in every conceivable way. It never really worked out for me. So I’m transitioning and, yes, on the whole things are starting to work out much better.
But the thing is, before I began my transition I had no idea where I fit into cissexual, heterosexual (“normal”) human sexuality. Because I was an intellectual little nerd, I’d read about things like evolutionary psychology, which would almost bring me to tears because it seemed to imply that no one would ever love me. When I began seriously investigating gender nonconformity and then, several years later, transitioning, I encountered infamous sexist psychologists like Raymond Blanchard. I would again be brought to the brink of tears ‘cause I thought, well shit, no one is ever going to love me. Read the rest of this entry »